I’ve decided to journal about my experiences as a healer, and the evolution of my healing methods.

First instalment…

Healing is something I’ve always done naturally, even as an aspect of listening to people and offering intuitive guidance.

Healing, to me, is about bridging a gap. It could be bridging a mental gap between someone seeing themselves as ‘stuck’ or confused, and offering a glimpse of the bigger picture, helping them see or at least feel a pathway forward or an alternative mindset. It could be bridging the gap between energetic stuckness and flowing in wellness again.

Even the intuitive ability and spiritual connection I have is bridging a gap between the spiritual realms and the physical. Perhaps this is why the eagle is my totem and also why I’ve often been drawn to shamanism? A shaman bridges the gap between the spirit world and physical.

It’s all merging in together now as we enter a new era in human experience. We’re blending our physical selves with our fuller divine spirit selves and this is why I feel that offering energetic healing services right now is most beneficial to others. When I work with the spiritual guidance side of things, we’re still ‘talking’…we’re still using the mental faculties that get us into all our troubles in the first place.

As we wade through new waters, it’s about feeling and being in a whole new-to-us way. I’ve come to personally experience how futile it is to try and problem solve and think your way out of life’s problems. All this does is send you around in circles. There’s something very powerful about energy work that bypasses the mind and goes straight to all that you’re hanging onto deep within and allows it to be released without travelling through the mind to ‘work it out’. Stop trying to work it out. Just know that you no longer need it in your life…all that heavy sad baggage. It’s grown old. You’ve outgrown it, but have you realised it yet?

Time for an energetic wardrobe overhaul! This is what I’m seeing in my mind right now. We, as divine beings here on Earth, are still wearing our old worn clothes but we don’t realise just how much we’ve transformed and the old clothes no longer suit us or serve us. We’re so beautiful and light…even ‘shiny’ comes to mind. We’re beautiful beings and we still think we’re the haggard struggler from the past. No, we are not that person…all those past life persons, any more. Can you get a sense of that??? Can you get a sense of the fullness of who you really are?

I’ve become a bit philosophical writing this but I’m seeing this as a vision and I know this is coming through as a channel now. I want to get back to my journey with healing though. Sometimes I cringe at the word ‘healing’ because it presumes there is something wrong that needs fixing. Really, I feel it’s about releasing and letting go of the energies that don’t serve you so your natural spirit essence can flow back and be predominant again. Your feeling of wellness and well-being is really about being in fuller connection with the true and full YOU. As we release and reclaim our divine presence within us, we awaken to a whole new experience.

Somewhere in the midst of all this is me, as a ‘healer’ – a bridge? a channel? a well-being facilitator? a reminder of one’s own beauty, power and light? … all of these things. I began with the hands-on modality I’ve been trained in – Reiki. Simple. Pure. Natural. Yet I’ve also known that I’m a healer from many lifetimes and there are aspects that would come together to form my own expression or gifts in healing. Reiki is beautiful, yet it’s not complete for me. There’s an expression of me that is who I am as a healer, and as I write this, it’s the first time I realise it as such. On the other hand (no pun intended), it’s not about me at all, but about serving others.

What I want to share here is that with anything, you have to start trusting that divine self within. You have to trust yourself enough to let that inner being shine and guide you. At the psychic fair yesterday, I noticed other healers using a pendulum in their work. This isn’t new to me, but it was standing out to me a lot and I knew this meant that I would find it beneficial to use a pendulum too. It’s not about copying, but following an inner pull.

So today I found myself sitting on my bed, asking questions using a pendulum. I really got into a ‘tuned in’ space quickly and was pulled to go to my sleeping 9 month old daughter with the pendulum to check her chakras. All chakras being okay, I asked if my daughter would benefit from healing energies and the pendulum indicated yes. I was drawn to simply hold my left hand up in the direction of her head (not close to it), while I asked the pendulum in my right hand to continue to spin to indicate the duration of the healing. Immediately I felt the energy flowing towards my daughter and I noticed the pendulum spinning strangely as if slightly slower than it should be for the diameter it was circling in. I was very much ‘in the zone’ for a few minutes and soon realised that the pendulum was spinning very largely, almost pulling my hand around with its force. This was very interesting to me and definitely felt like a ‘step up’ in my personal ‘technique’.

At the point I felt to finish, I pulled both hands, one with the pendulum, quickly to my heart area and gave thanks. This felt like a special connection. I went with the whole feel and just stood there for a few moments, appreciating the energy and gift. I then started falling back on my feet a bit and at the point where I thought I could fall right back, the energy would shift in my legs and feet and I would stabilise. Again, I was trusting the energy. I’ve experienced this a few times before when very relaxed. It’s like an involuntary energy release from the body, twisting and turning. I leant to each side and felt a process of tension and release in the muscles in my back, gradually working their way up. I love this because it’s so natural to flow with the energy and move.

All of this energy work…it’s no natural. That’s one of the things I’m determined to do…to keep everything as simple and natural as possible. In fact, one of the things I appreciated in the healing I did with my daughter, was that I held my hand in one place and there was no need to move to different placements over the body. This is something I had intuitively felt when following the ‘usual’ Reiki method of hand placements. It’s really worth trusting yourself and finding something so much more powerful when you allow your divine knowing to come through.

Perhaps someone who reads this is also a healer (we all can be our own healers). I want to encourage you to go with whatever feels true to you. Use other teachings and techniques as your learning ground and a starting place, then go where your inner being guides you. You are unique and have unique gifts. Share of yourself in the way that is unique to you.